I made it through the day on Mountain Dew and unbuttered popcorn, and to my surprise, when I got home, my mom had a bag full of vegan groceries!
I was so happy :D
She was being so unsupportive this morning, but she actually got me some stuff and said she'd support me, but that I'd have to take care of myself, and make my own meals, and she wasn't gonna prepare any seperate meals for me. :) I'm sooo so so so happy right now.
I double checked the ingredients on all of them and, yep, 100% animal and animal product free!
Haha - I'm keepin this short - Gotta go eat my weight in vegan pizza - haha :) I wonder how soy cheese will taste ;) Good thing I've never been picky! (And I'm sure I won't be picky at ALL with how hungry I am).
There is no vegan food in this house!
Hmm..what have I eaten today. Some apple slices and leftover white rice.
I'm dizzy as heck and hungry. But I'm not going to give up and eat cheese... as tempting as that sounds right now.
Earlier my dad was going to the store, and I said "I'm hungry, can you get something vegan"
He said "There's plenty of food in the house." I said, "Nothing I can eat - nothing vegan."
He said "I'm not getting you anything vegan."
Several times, I've searched through the fridge, freezer, and pantry for things I can eat, but there's literally nothing.
I'm starvinggggg. But I'm not going to give up.
I watched this video: http://www.peta.org/issues/animals-used-f
And I successfully ate out. Which is difficult when you're changing your eating habits in any way. We went to sushi, and I got rice and tofu and edimame. I was really happy about it! Thank God soy sauce is vegan, haha :)
I'm feeling really confident about this - mostly cuz it isn't just like it's another diet change to lose weight or anything, so it's not like I'm gonna be tempted by some tasty thing that has beef, chicken, fish, pork, milk, or eggs. Cuz I'm literally scarred by the facts. I just can't imagine eating those things again, now knowing how they got there. It's different then dieting, you know? If what I just said made ANY sense. lol
I still want to cry every time I think about that video. I've eaten meat, eggs, and dairy products all my life, and it disgusts me now to think about it.
And I'll be a healthier person, too. This'll reduce my risk of heart disease, some cancers, and other health problems.
She explained that basically we first need to get on the physical therapy, occupational therapy, and acupuncture, to try to get rid of the "Pain Amplification Syndrome", because she DOES feel that there is another problem, probably a couple other problems with my joints and immune system, under the Pain Amplification Syndrome, but it's hard to assess my symptoms because the PAS is masking everything making everything hurt. She basically says "Let's get rid of your PAS, and once we do that, we can look at what's left over and work with that to see what your underlying conditions are."
She looked at the CT scans of my jaw that the other doctor guy did and said that she THOUGHT she saw arthritis, but that she wasn't sure and she'd have to get a second opinion from the radiologist. She also said that they'd probably have to do an MRI with IV contrast. I've had plenty of MRIs before, but none with IV contrast.... I HATE IVs. :( Very much.
They also gave me a bunch of readings on living with arthritis as a teen. Although they have determined that I don't have arthritis in my wrists... which is where I get a lot of my pain... and she doesnt think I have it in any of my other joints... since my symptoms match up with arthritis they gave me readings on it.
And that's been my week as far as health stuff goes.